tine sparkles

I had a few more big A-ha moments yesterday actually. It was almost like a chain reaction and one lead to another. I had been busy over the past weeks painting more birds on my canvasses. As I was looking for a name for them I  wondered about some being Soul Birds and I have the Sparkle Birds hoping that it wasn't too confusing because shouldn't they all have one name after all? They were all the same kinds of birds, right? These  new ones now I called 'Wunder Birds' finally. And then it dawned on me that yes, there could be different kinds of birds within the same group, right? Just like in nature - A-ha!

As I uploaded them I thought back to the time when I painted the first one of them last year and why I painted it with the message. It was an affirmation to myself encouraging me to be true to myself no matter what, a message not only of self acceptance and authenticity to oneself but also from oneself to others. A-ha!
It occurred to me that, yes my birds are all looking alike but they are all different groups with different tasks. The Sparkle Birds have their task to bring glamour and glitter and sparkles into this world, the Soul Birds touch and empower one's soul, the Love Birds can be found kissing and the Wunder Birds are about the wunders (wonders) of being one's wonderful self because after all that is what life is all about. A-ha!

My birds are just like us! We all may seem alike but we aren't. We are all different. Whenever I draw or make or create one of my birds they all turn out slightly different although they all have the same base (shown in the picture above are the tiny birds before I turn them into jewelry,so what you see is kind of like a skelleton one could say, hahah). I cannot make them completely identical unless I used a stencil. Each single one is a unique one and has a character of its own - just like us. A-ha! And yes, they are all special, each single one of them. There is not a single one that is more special in my heart, not a one, I am in love with them all equally much- just like us. They all bring such joy to me when I create them and they bring me joy because I know that they bring you joy. A-ha!

And that's all there really is to it.

I used to be under such a pressure for myself thinking I had to find my soul purpose in life and that I must have one. I was on a crazy search for this special kind of magical power within me that would set me apart and all would fall into place once I found it and the world would be well once I knew my mission in life. I was constantly doubting things and questioning if this would be 'it', chasing desperately after bigger and better (because wasn't it supposed to be like that after all?) and I would get some kind of high success rolling in off the skies once I had found being enlightened and all. I was constantly afraid of missing out, missing 'it', passing it by, what if's where all over the place and the biggest one was what if I never found it?

I now know that all that was reaching the complete opposite for me. A-ha! It made me cranky and dissatisfied, hopeless and pessimistic, worrisome and afraid because what if I messed it up? I got caught up in it all trying to please some invisible universal power to get approval from. I am letting go of that belief now. Yes, it seems a little rebellious but before I started to believe in all that purpose stuff my life I was so much more at peace, less stressed and happier because I just did instinctively what I was best at: being myself. A-ha!
All I know is what is now and what was and those are the facts. Nothing more and nothing less. It is what is real and able to be grabbed. I am equipped with all that I will ever need just like everyone else and I will always be enough because I already am! That's a fact. A-ha!

My birds taught me the biggest lesson of all. They all know exactly what to do: be happy with who they are just because they are all absolutely perfect in their own way.